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Sorry about that. I suppose it was rather rude of me.

Well, I've no idea why you're apologizing to me; it isn't as though you imagined it would go like that.

Oh, not at all. I wasn't entirely sure what to expect, but it certainly wasn't that!

[...]

You know that isn't a decision I would make now, don't you...?

[He's fairly sure he knows the answer to that, but he needs to hear it.]

Regardless of what I'm after, or what's being offered to me - you know I wouldn't...

[Oh...]

Of course I know that. I would never question that, Albert. I know it was just a dream and things were very different in the dream. You would never do something like that to me now.

[He moves closer after a moment, nuzzling a bit as he does so.]

I promise, I wasn't worried about that.

[It takes him a moment to respond to that, but when he does it's sudden; he shifts his grip to pull Jaeger against him, holding him closely and just kind of...vibrating a bit.

He doesn't know what causes it; just...give him a moment to try to calm down.]

[Oh no...

Jaeger leans into it easily, moving to return that grip, pulling himself as close as possible. He's not going to stop with the nuzzling, and he'll give Wesker a moment before speaking up again.]

I know it was a lot. It's difficult, but it's over now. We're both okay, ja? Take as long as you need; I'm not going anywhere.

...I'm sorry.

[It's quiet, a bit muffled due to positioning.]

I'm...sorry, I shouldn't...

[He doesn't know how he wants to end that, so he simply doesn't.]

You don't need to apologize, Albert. It's okay.

[You already apologized once, and that's all he really needed to hear. He's okay now.

Jaeger reaches up to gently run his fingers through the back of Wesker's hair. He'll stop if he gets any indication that Wesker wants him to, but he has always been fond of Wesker playing with his hair, so...]

I love you, you know. And I certainly don't mind staying like this.

...I know. I love you too.

[He's...calming down a little, slowly; he doesn't respond much to the hair-playing, but he doesn't seem to want Jaeger to stop, either.]

I hate feeling like that. In dreams or otherwise.

[Don't worry, he won't stop.]

It seems very difficult. Do you want to talk about it?

...I don't know what there is to talk about.

[It isn't a refusal, he just...isn't good at talking about these things.]

[It's okay, he understands...]

What is it about feeling like that that troubles you the most?

[...there is a pause.]

Jaeger, I was just willing to shoot you in the face.

Well, yes... Aside from that, though?

That's...it, I think, in a way.

[Mnngh.]

Nothing matters to me when things are like that. It's very cold.

Does that bother you? That you're shutting everything else out like that?

Not at the time that it happens. But afterwards, it's a bit repulsive, yes.

I think I can understand that. I think I used to do something similar, in my past life. I don't think I could manage it now even if I really wanted to... but I can see where it would be terrible to look back on it.

I don't usually do it nowadays. Once in a while, but not often. It was like that all the time back then, however.

You can always come talk to me about it, if you end up doing it again or if you remember doing that sort of thing in your past life. I may not know what to say, but I'll always be here for you.

[...]

It isn't anything I'm concerned about. If there's another incident along the lines of those heart stones, we may have a problem; I didn't want to alarm you at the time with so much else going on, but I had some...difficulties with mine. But otherwise, it's nothing that isn't manageable.

Oh? What sort of difficulties...?

[That's a little concerning...]

It wasn't in terribly good condition by the end of the month. I still have it, if you would want to see it for yourself, but that's the important thing.

Oh, yes, I'd like to see it. But what happened? Why was it in poor condition?

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