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Because I had a gun with me at all times, and yet I never shot him until we were already fighting.

[HE'S SO MAD? He's very understated about it, as is his general way, but he's so fucking mad.]

I could have circumvented the entire thing, but for some reason chose not to.

[...He knows he shouldn't be this irritated about not straight-up murdering a dude, but oh my god that turned into a bossfight that he is not giving you details about because YIKES when it really didn't have to.]

[Ohhhhh my god. On the one hand, murdering a dude. On the other, this sounds like it went places.]

Oh my. I'm guessing you didn't have a good reason for not shooting him, you just didn't?

[He's trying so hard not to look amused but. listen. you're cute when you're mad.]

[...Why are you like this.]

...I can't be sure. I haven't been able to work out how I felt toward the man back then, in all the memories I've had involving him. It's...conflicting, for lack of a better term, though I remember being vaguely pleased to see him when it turned out to be him in the fog.

[...]

The fight I remembered was also...strange, along those lines.

[...was...was he into sergei? he has no idea but he thinks he might have been into sergei. um.]

[you were totally into sergei...]

Ooh, that sounds interesting. How was the fight strange?

...We spent approximately as much of it flirting as we did fighting, to be blunt.

[Things he learned about himself recently: his past self was apparently a useless bisexual.]

[Okay, that's going to get him to burst out laughing, thanks.]

My, it sounds like you had a lot of fun fighting him! Should I be worried~?

[mnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngh shut up it's not his fault he had shit taste in men- ]

I should say not, if only because we spend far less time trying to kill one another.

[but it's c u t e HEY WAIT A MINUTE]

That isn't something I'm all that interested in changing, so hopefully that's not the sort of thing you're into.

[wink!]

[...]

...I don't believe so?

[...you can practically hear the :|a ]

...I was joking, but that's good to know?

[o h m y g o d]

Well, I do have several reasons to believe that I was.

[JUST...SAYING...]

Don't worry, I still rather prefer what we have now.

[good to know...???]

I'm glad to hear it! I would be a bit worried if you didn't!

[But that's gotten him to settle, so that's good?]

I don't know if he's ever going to show up here, but should Sergei make his presence known on the network at any point, I'll let you know. Granted, if he ends up being anything like what he is in my memories, he's a little difficult to miss.

I think it may be for the best to not engage with him very much, should that happen, but it's difficult to say for now. I obviously can't discern the future.

Ja, I'll be sure to keep that in mind. I'm curious about him, of course, but if you say it's best to avoid him, I will.

I certainly won't stop you from speaking to him, should we see him. But every encounter with him that I've recalled has seemed to end in us trying to kill each other.

[...]

...I also managed to succeed, this last time. So I doubt he'd be very pleased to see me.

Oh, I see. That certainly would be a problem, wouldn't it?

[y i k e s]

Do you want someone from your world to be here? I can see why you might not want him specifically, but anyone else?

...There are a few of them that I would like to speak to, perhaps. I wouldn't be concerned for their safety against Retrospec, because I know they can take care of themselves, but that still seems a strange thing to want for anyone.

Mm, that's true. Perhaps that's not the right way to word it, then. Wishing for anyone to be in this situation does seem fairly cruel, doesn't it?

[Maybe he'd wish it on the dog, but no one else from his memories comes to mind as someone he'd want to suffer through this.]

It does. Though...

[...Mnngh.]

I don't know if I'd want to see some of them so much as just know they're here. It's complicated.

I think I can understand. It's sort of a relief not to be the only one from my world, even if the other is someone I'm not really sure I wanted to see again.

That's part of it.

[The rest, though... He has no idea how to word the rest.]

...Depending on how things are going to end here, it would be better for Excella to be here, I believe. I wouldn't wish the memories on her, of course, but...

[...Yeah.]

Oh. Ja, I understand.

[She deserves better than what she got, that's completely understandable.]

Perhaps she'll show up here someday.

Perhaps.

[...And that's more or less what he was trying to say, yes; he doesn't know what she deserved, because in all honesty he still doesn't remember her very well. But it was definitely better than what she got.]

...The others I would want here are people like Birkin, or the members of Alpha Team that I've remembered. People that I had a decent history with, and that I wouldn't mind speaking to again.

[I mean, there's all the weirdness with Chris, but that's. Probably fine? That would probably be fine, um.]

[Surely that wouldn't go poorly!!]

That's certainly understandable! While it's probably cruel to say it, I think I'd like to see my...

[mmmngh.]

Gauche and Droite. I wouldn't wish this on them, but I feel like getting to know them again would be nice.

...Those are the daughters you mentioned, I assume?

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