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I know, and I know there wasn't any other option... But if there had been, I would have stayed right there with you.

...I thought it was good of you. To want to stay like that, and to want to help me.

Of course I wanted to! All of that was... terrible, and I wanted to do everything I could to help you. You didn't seem scared, but you were all alone...

I wasn't feeling much of anything at the time, to be blunt; I wasn't able to.

Well, I suppose that's better than feeling lonely or afraid...

I'm really happy I was able to help you eventually, at least.

[...]

...I know you don't like the idea of killing people. I shouldn't have put you in that position with Spencer.

Don't feel bad about it. The only reason why I hadn't killed him before that was because I thought he might have a solution for getting that thing off your chest. I absolutely would have killed him earlier if I'd thought otherwise.

[He doesn't sound upset or bothered by that at all. It's something that still doesn't sit right with him, but he certainly doesn't blame Wesker for that.]

That device was... I don't know what it contained, exactly; we just called it P-30. It was designed to enhance physical performance and increase aggression, as well as make the subject more susceptible to suggestion.

[...Brainwashing, basically.]

...I'm very glad you were able to resist it.

[Increased physical performance and aggression? He absolutely would have died if Wesker had attacked him, damn.]

I'm sorry you had to deal with that in the first place, especially being controlled by someone like Spencer.

[He might not like Birkin, but hatred is reserved for Spencer.]

...I didn't want to hurt you.

[That's...it's really all he can say to something like that; he falls silent afterwards, though he isn't letting go of Jaeger's hands.]

I know you didn't. I know you did everything you could to prevent that, and I really appreciate it.

[His grip tightens on Wesker's hands again.]

It was... difficult, but I'm happy I could be there for you.

You're certain you've been all right since then...?

[He knows he keeps asking, but...]

You've seemed...troubled, somewhat.

[He's noticed that you haven't wanted to leave his side for anything.]

I'm... Well, I'm okay, but...

[...]

I'm worried about you. I know that's nothing new, but seeing all of that... It's certainly concerning. I don't... really know how to help either.

What are you worried about?

[It's calm, though, there's nothing pointed behind it.]

I'm worried you'll be hurt like that again. Not in exactly the same way, of course, but I... really don't like to see you hurting. I don't want anything to happen to you.

I promise I'm all right. I...

[...He doesn't know how to finish that, exactly; just...give him a moment to try again.]

Did what Spencer was saying bother you?

Of course. I... don't like the idea that you're worried about that. Maybe you don't actually believe it, but hearing it... It troubles me.

...It's something I try not to think about very much.

Albert...

[His grip tightens on Wesker's hands again before he decides to let go entirely and move to latch on, if Wesker will let him.]

I'm sorry. It's... really difficult, ja? But I'm going to be right here, and I meant every word I said to Spencer. I'll repeat it as many times as you need to hear it.

[And maybe... maybe it'll help a little.]

[...Oh. Oh, he'll...right, okay. It takes him a moment to realize what Jaeger is doing, but he'll shift to pull him a little closer once he has.]

You don't have to worry about me. I'll be all right; I have difficulties from time to time, but it isn't anything to be concerned about.

[...]

Sometimes I have doubts about things. Whether there really is a place in the world for someone like me. It's something that I've always questioned, not...just recently.

[He settles easily once Wesker's pulled him closer, though his grip is tight.]

I know you'll be all right. You always are. But I can still worry about you a little bit, ja?

...There's always a place for you in the world. I don't think the world is a cruel enough place to reject anyone outright like that, but even if it was, you'd always have a place with the people who care for you.

...It's something I'm still working on accepting, I think.

[Another of those things, then.]

It's okay, I'll repeat it as many times as you need to hear it.

[He leans in to nuzzle Wesker.]

At the very least, you'll always have a place with us.

...I've never been like the rest of you.

[He'll return the nuzzling, though; it doesn't seem desperate at all.]

It's something I've always been aware of, that I'm not like most people. Seeing what my past life was like often makes me wonder if that's why - if I'm just inherently flawed, or otherwise so fundamentally broken that there's no sense in trying.

It isn't something that's constantly on my mind, but it is there. I know you've been trying to encourage me to not think of it like that, but it's difficult to ignore.

[He's quiet for a moment, but he doesn't stop with the nuzzling. It is desperate on his end, though.]

...There are some things you can have a really hard time letting go of, so I get that. I really do wish you could see things the same way I do, though.

Just because you're different doesn't mean you're flawed. Everyone's different in their own way; that's what makes us all so fascinating. Yes, some of the differences are extreme, and maybe they're even differences that are worrying or frightening. That doesn't make anyone inherently broken.

I just... I really don't believe people can start out broken. They can be broken, yes, sometimes very early on, even. But I don't believe...

[He trails off there, not really sure how to continue.]

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