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[Shuji's place is a very, very expansive library. All the books are in Japanese, so good luck making use of that if you don't read the language, but on the plus side: it has its own bar! And Shuji will translate Wesker's order for him, and only wince a tiny bit when he slips into Tsugaru dialect.

He's gotten himself a Fruity Girly Drink™.]

Should I start, or do you want to go first?

Edited 2019-02-02 15:06 (UTC)

[Wesker is one of those people that just prefers things reasonably strong and straightforward; scotch is fine, he is a simple man.]

I don't mind if you start.

[Sigh. Where to even begin...]

So the most recent memory I got back was Dazai threatening to kill himself if a famous writer didn't agree to meet with him, because that is a completely appropriate letter to send someone you've never met. Cripes.

From what you've told me before, he just shouldn't have been permitted to send letters to anyone.

I think banning all forms of communication would be a good start. Including talking.

If you say so.

[Go on if you're going to, really.]

[Hhhh.]

Did I mention he cheated on his wife the last time we got together to complain about our past selves? I feel like that's a more recent revelation. If completely unsurprising.

Fucking asshole. I'm still willing to trade you for the guy who tried to wipe out humanity.

[If only that was a thing they could actually do.]

[That gets him to bristle immediately, actually.]

Don't start with that.

Sorry. ...Do you want to vent now?

[It seems like the venting may be necessary.]

I'm not entirely sure what you want to hear. The part where I personally murdered a woman that was in love with me? The part where I probably killed my...I don't know if she was my wife or my girlfriend at the time, but either way she was pregnant with my child at the time that I abandoned her, and I absolutely destroyed the area I sent her back to.

I learned to murder people when I was a child. I had plenty of siblings to practice that particular skill on, because about two hundred of us were captured and kept in some mad scientist's basement so we could be experimented on and brainwashed into serving him. Shall I continue, or is this sounding dire enough that you understand why I'm not fond of you trivializing it, since apparently the guilt from everything else that I've done isn't enough for you to comprehend why I don't like hearing things like that?

This isn't anywhere near the same level. I would appreciate you not acting as though it is.

...sorry.

[All of that sounds horrifying to remember and a good reason to seek therapy.

Even if it sounds less like Shuji than Dazai does, it would still be worse.]

Another round of drinks?

...That would likewise be appreciated.

[...Jesus. Give him a second.]

You do have my apologies. It's been..."interesting" is the polite way to say it. For what it's worth, I don't recall all of the torture; he was told about that by the man who did it, years after the fact. Part of what led to the attempt at world-ending, it seems; he didn't take it well.

[Shuji signals to the bartender, who soon puts more drinks in front of them. All of this is definitely going on Shuji's tab, if it wasn't before.]

That's better than directly remembering the experience, but it's a very, very small mercy. ...If past you blocked it out, maybe you'll never remember the rest?

[They can hope.]

That's what I'm thinking; seeing as he didn't remember either, it's possible that all of that is just...gone.

[Small mercies indeed.]

...It's a good amount to sort through. I've had reasonable amounts of success in getting to a point where I can live with it, at any rate.

It's less horrific on a relatable level; I do understand where it wouldn't be as abjectly disconcerting as something that's more based in reality, so to speak. We all have our difficulties with things, I suppose.

...That, and Dazai's too much like me. I can see myself in him and how I'd turn out like him. When I remember him doing something terrible, I can see myself doing the same thing if I let my vices get out of control.

Past Wesker - that's horrifying, those memories are far worse than anything I've ever had and I'm sorry for even comparing them. But he's less like me. And I'm sure you'd be better at dealing with Dazai's memories than I am, because he's less like you.

[In that way, they're all uniquely unsuited for dealing with their memories.]

I don't know that I'd handle it any better - differently, perhaps. But not better.

[It's something he's told Jaeger as well, really.]

I don't know if my past life would have been anything like I am now if he hadn't been tampered with. It's difficult to say; he didn't have a chance at anything resembling a normal life from the start, from what I understand. He was told the lot of them were "collected" - I don't know if that means he was kidnapped or handed over willingly, or...sold, or what that entails. Either way, the man who started all that ensured that nothing was going to be normal for him from then on.

[What do you say to that, really, other than:]

Fuck that guy.

Oh, believe me, I have an understanding with a few people that if he ever shows up on the app, I may do a few things that end up seeing me in prison for a good long while.

It will be entirely worth it, and Jaeger and I have more than enough between us to post bail in the meantime.

Can I help, or would you prefer the satisfaction of doing it yourself?

[...Shuji really can't judge, considering he's set on killing Vanderweele if he ever has the opportunity.]

I should probably be halfway responsible and tell you that you absolutely can't, but as it turns out I'm more spiteful than responsible.

Do whatever you like after I get the first hit in. I won't be merciful and kill him in one strike this time.

Great, then I have a scythe to introduce to his face.

...It'd be better if he doesn't show up at all though, even considering us being spiteful.

[Definitely including himself in that.]

I agree, honestly. Nothing good came out of that man, my past life included.

Plus he doesn't deserve you having to go to jail for it. However much bail costs, it's worth more than he is.

[Wow.

...i mean where is the lie tho]

That's entirely fair, yes.

[Shuji won't compete against Wesker for worst memories, but he can still compete for most spite.]

I feel like there's a toast to be made here, but I can't think of anything other than 'to that guy stepping on five hundred Legos while you punch him in the face'.

[It's not the worst toast he's ever come up with, to be fair.]

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