[That's not going to be a fun conversation at all.]
Good luck. You're probably right though, I doubt there will be any point to talk about this. We can work out who would be best to tell her later, I think.
I'm not particularly looking forward to the conversation with her. She does seem to agree with you, though, on the notion that I don't deserve to die for what happened. At least for now.
He's quiet for a moment once that's out there, though.]
I've been trying not to dwell on it as much. The notion of what I do or don't deserve. It's...difficult, and seeing as it's something that I used to be preoccupied with back then as well, it's apparently just something that's always going to be on my mind.
But whether I believe I deserve it or not, the fact of the matter is that I don't want to die.
[He just kind of...breathes for a moment; tries to gather his thoughts.]
I still don't understand why it happened the way it did, but I have reason to believe that I killed myself in my past life, with those viruses I told you about. Whatever the reason was back then, if I've already died once, I'm willing to accept that as penance for whatever it is that I've done. It doesn't feel like enough, and I really don't believe that it was, but at least I was removed from the equation eventually and as it stands, that entire world is dead now, if we can believe Retrospec.
And even if dying before wasn't enough, I don't want to die now. Regardless of what I deserve, I want to stay here, at least for the time being.
[Jaeger listens to all of that quietly. He's not sure he knows what to say to that or how to react, but after a moment of silence and staring at the ground he forces himself to meet Wesker's eyes and he nods.]
I'm sorry to hear that's what happened, but... I think I understand. You've already died once and I don't want to see any harm come to you in this life, so... Thank you. For telling me.
[It's not exactly stunted, but it's obvious he's still working through all of that. It's sort of a lot to take in. His grip on Wesker's hand is tight though; he doesn't want to let go.]
[Wesker stops walking altogether at that, though he doesn't pull away or try to make Jaeger let go of his hand; he simply tugs him gently to a stop before reaching out with his free hand, letting it run lightly over Jaeger's hair for a moment.]
I'll make sure that no harm comes to me. I want to stay here with you, for as long as I'm able.
Good. I'll do what I can to make sure nothing happens - to take care of myself as best I can, and make sure no harm comes to me if I can prevent it. I think I can promise you that much again.
[Which is definite improvement over that night he first asked you to stay with him.]
[Again, that gets a quiet assenting noise out of him, though he doesn't leave it at that this time.]
Has it been troubling you?
[Maybe not all the time, but on some level, he thinks it may have, particularly in combination with the network post from several days ago - after all, you're doing the..."confirming things a lot" thing again.]
I won't think like that anymore; it isn't something I want.
[It isn't that Jaeger's thoughts on it don't matter, because they do; at the same time...well, Jaeger is always trying to get him to act on what he wants a bit more, as opposed to what he thinks other people want to hear or would consider acceptable.]
Ja, I know. It wasn't something that was constantly troubling me, if that makes sense? I thought you'd talk to me about it at some point; I certainly wasn't worried about that part, at least.
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She...saw the incident with Excella, in the same way that you did.
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[That's not going to be a fun conversation at all.]
Good luck. You're probably right though, I doubt there will be any point to talk about this. We can work out who would be best to tell her later, I think.
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I'm not particularly looking forward to the conversation with her. She does seem to agree with you, though, on the notion that I don't deserve to die for what happened. At least for now.
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His grip tightens on Wesker's hand.]
I'm glad. I'm sure the conversation won't be pleasant, but it might be good for her to know.
[It might be good to have another opinion on all of this too.]
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[So at least there's that.
He's quiet for a moment once that's out there, though.]
I've been trying not to dwell on it as much. The notion of what I do or don't deserve. It's...difficult, and seeing as it's something that I used to be preoccupied with back then as well, it's apparently just something that's always going to be on my mind.
But whether I believe I deserve it or not, the fact of the matter is that I don't want to die.
[He just kind of...breathes for a moment; tries to gather his thoughts.]
I still don't understand why it happened the way it did, but I have reason to believe that I killed myself in my past life, with those viruses I told you about. Whatever the reason was back then, if I've already died once, I'm willing to accept that as penance for whatever it is that I've done. It doesn't feel like enough, and I really don't believe that it was, but at least I was removed from the equation eventually and as it stands, that entire world is dead now, if we can believe Retrospec.
And even if dying before wasn't enough, I don't want to die now. Regardless of what I deserve, I want to stay here, at least for the time being.
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I'm sorry to hear that's what happened, but... I think I understand. You've already died once and I don't want to see any harm come to you in this life, so... Thank you. For telling me.
[It's not exactly stunted, but it's obvious he's still working through all of that. It's sort of a lot to take in. His grip on Wesker's hand is tight though; he doesn't want to let go.]
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I'll make sure that no harm comes to me. I want to stay here with you, for as long as I'm able.
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...I'd like nothing more, Albert.
[He leans into that after a moment, his eyes sliding closed.]
It really is a relief to hear it. I... Thank you. It means so much to me.
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[He's still messing with Jaeger's hair a little as he says it; it's nice.]
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I know you won't. I trust you, ja? I'm just so happy to hear it.
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[Which is definite improvement over that night he first asked you to stay with him.]
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I'm happy to hear it. I'll do everything I can to help, of course! But that... That's a promise I really hope you'll keep!
[He sounds sure that Wesker will keep it. Wesker wouldn't promise unless he thought he could keep it, after all.]
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Has it been troubling you?
[Maybe not all the time, but on some level, he thinks it may have, particularly in combination with the network post from several days ago - after all, you're doing the..."confirming things a lot" thing again.]
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[He nods, slightly.]
Ja, it's been worrying me. I don't want anything to happen to you, after all.
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I won't think like that anymore; it isn't something I want.
[It isn't that Jaeger's thoughts on it don't matter, because they do; at the same time...well, Jaeger is always trying to get him to act on what he wants a bit more, as opposed to what he thinks other people want to hear or would consider acceptable.]
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[It's good to hear that it isn't something Wesker wants and Jaeger's smile is genuine.]
Thank you for telling me. I'm pleased I won't have to worry about that anymore!
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If you ever want anything clarified for you, you can ask me. You know that, right?
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[It's...sort of awkward to elaborate what he's trying to say here, but he's making an attempt.]
I do appreciate you not trying to force answers out of me before I've had time to deliberate and come to a conclusion on my own.
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[Well, okay, he tries to be patient but surely that counts for something!!]
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[wow, wesker.]
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