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Given what you've told me, I can only imagine.

[...Just saying, the whole backstabbing shitshow sounds like something to be kind of angry over.]

That's the only one I'm still angry about. I think I'll always be mad about that.

[He's still smiling, but it's less pleasant now.]

You should be.

[That's...immediate, really.]

There are some things that don't deserve to be forgiven, even if you've moved beyond being actively upset about them. And some people deserve to be hated for as long as you still think about them.

There's hardly anything wrong with that, I think.

...I'm glad to hear that.

[He really is, more than he can really express.]

As much as I'd like to forget about all of that and move on with my life, I think a part of me will always be stuck on that.

It's a bit strange, but it's good to hear that it's fine for me to hate her. It's not as though I've been told to let the whole thing go or anything like that, but I suppose I've always thought that it would be for the best if I could find a way to ignore it.

[Like he does everything else that troubles him.]

...Unfortunately, I never did find a way to do that in this particular case.

Understandably so. Though I've personally never seen anything wrong with surviving on sheer spite, either, so bear in mind that that's where I'm coming from with this.

But really, hatred and anger are more than good enough in several circumstances - both because it's all a person really deserves to have thrown in their direction, and likewise because it keeps us from tripping into the same pitfalls over and over again. Hate her as much as you see fit. I'm hardly going to judge you for it.

I know you won't. But I'm pleased to hear it anyway!

[Surviving on sheer spite sound exhausting, though.]

There's very little that will make me as angry as she does, and I suppose in some ways I'm thankful for that. I've never liked getting angry, after all.

[It is and it isn't; it's been a while since he's done it, but that was more or less the state of things for him for a while.]

Hopefully it stays that way, then.

It should! I'm in a much better place now, ja? I don't have to worry about anyone betraying me like that again.

[Because he's only close to one person and he trusts that Wesker won't stab him in the back.]

...No, you don't.

[It's a bit uncomfortable for him still, saying that sort of thing, given what his memories have decided to be lately; at the same time, he doesn't freeze up nearly as badly as he had a few days ago, either, it's just sort of awkward.]

[Hey, that's better than it was! Jaeger looks pleased with the reaction anyway, but he won't press it any further.]

Goodness, I didn't realize we were going to get into that little discussion. My apologies! Thank you for hearing me out though, it's appreciated.

Perhaps I like hearing about you.

[Just putting that out there.]

Oh.

[That seems to genuinely catch him off-guard, like he would have expected any answer before that one.]

...Well, you're welcome to ask, you know!

I'm sure I will eventually.

[There's just no...non-awkward way to do that, but it's not like that stops him most of the time anyway.]

Likewise, you know.

Of course! Perhaps someday I'll ask you more about yourself as well!

[He's very pleased with that, okay.]

I wouldn't mind that, at any rate, though I can't guarantee I'll have good answers for some of it. Depending on what you want to know.

[He kind of doesn't remember a fair amount of things, so.]

[Right, he did want to ask about Wesker's childhood at some point...]

...Someday I'd like to hear more about your past. It doesn't have to be now! But I'd like to learn more about it at some point.

[Oh, that...]

...That's something I can't be sure I can answer for, but perhaps when you're here for the weekend we can discuss it.

[Not now, in other words, but putting an actual generalized date to it is likely a good thing as well - he's not trying to dodge the question altogether.]

[That's good to hear; he doesn't mind the delay but it's good to have a date for it, even if it's something Wesker's not sure he can answer.]

That's fine. I don't mind waiting! And if you can't answer it, that's fine too. I'll admit I've been curious about it for awhile now, but if it's something you can't talk about, I understand.

Next weekend, then. I won't forget.

...You know enough about me already for it to not be much more of a concern. It'll be fine, regardless of what you want to know.

[It's difficult to discuss, yes, but you also saw him contemplate killing himself due to weird angst spirits and being completely unable to tell you why, so it's not like the conversation is going to be any worse than that in his opinion.]

I'm glad to hear that. I wouldn't want to make this hard on you just because I'm curious!

[It's not like many things could be worse than that, honestly...]

Of course.

[So that's...something to consider for a while, he supposes. Until next weekend, anyway.]

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