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I'm furious that someone said something like that to you! I'm assuming they don't know you very well, ja? So how can they say something like that?

[mnnngh eye contact is hard]

It really isn't that important in the scheme of things. As you said, they don't know me well, so their opinion doesn't matter to me.

That's fair, their opinion shouldn't matter to you. Still, I can see where something like that might be difficult to hear.

[He's noticed the lack of eye contact, and his grip tightens on Wesker's hand.]

Anyone who knows you knows that isn't true, though. None of us would ever think of you like that.

...I know you don't.

[...]

I'm not angry that it was said. You know I have difficulties with emotions in general, and that I'm not always good at expressing them.

That doesn't mean that you don't have them. What kind of person would assume that you don't? Honestly, that says more about them than it does about you.

I'm very sorry you had to deal with someone saying such things to you.

...Are you going to be all right?

[you seem. really mad.]

[HE IS.]

I'll be fine, I'm just really upset someone would say something like that to you! I don't care what the argument was about, there's no reason to say something like that!

...Again, it doesn't particularly surprise me that someone would.

[...wesker that's probably not helping]

[THAT IS DEFINITELY NOT HELPING!!]

It's incredibly rude! Even if you do think that about a stranger, why would you say it?

[just. okay. deep breaths. getting riled up isn't doing any good.]

You're sure you're okay? What they said hasn't been eating at you, has it?

It would bother me more if it was someone I knew well, or someone I cared about the opinions of.

Though I suppose it troubles me a bit that my issues are so obvious to others.

I'm sorry, Albert. I don't know why someone would decide to say something like that even if they are angry, but they really should have kept their mouth shut.

Is there anything I can do to help you?

[since apparently punching is not an option??]

Don't worry about it too much; I'll be fine.

[Eventually.]

It doesn't affect how I see myself. That admittedly hasn't changed much since we discussed it, though I've been trying not to openly call myself defective.

[His grip tightens a bit.]

I'm glad you're not saying it, at least. I don't know if that's something that will ever change, but I... I really hope it does, someday.

[...]

I know you will be fine, but I'll be right here, for anything you need.

...I know hearing that upsets you. It isn't my intention to.

[He's. Trying.]

I know it isn't. It's just... a bit difficult to hear that you think of yourself that way. I know you're not saying it to upset me though, don't worry about that.

...I understand, I think.

[He's been trying to sort through it a little? He thinks he gets it a little better than he did last time.]

I'm glad. I'm not always very good at explaining my thought process behind things like this, but I can try if you ever need me to.

I wouldn't care for it very much if someone said something like that to Kei's face, even if I objectively agree with it.

[...Wesker, that's.

...

You know what, okay.]

[WELL, THAT SURE IS A THING.]

That's... more or less it, though I still don't like thinking of anyone that way...

[oh my god.]

It's objective fact about some people, I'd think...?

[...look he's trying really hard but it's. fairly obvious that he does not quite get it.]

Personally, I don't think it's fair to think of anyone that way. There are always going to be people who don't think the same way as others, or don't feel the same things, or experience things in the same way. I don't like the idea of setting a base line and saying that anyone who doesn't meet it is "defective".

I suppose part of that is a difference in how we think of the word; you've said that you don't think of yourself as less than others, but whenever I hear it, that's always my first thought. Even though I know that's not what you mean, it still troubles me to hear it.

[Mm.]

Perhaps. Though I would argue that there's a difference between simply not meeting a baseline, and having one's experiences be so far off from normal that it's difficult to relate properly to others.

Even then, I still can't think of someone as "defective". It's very difficult for me to see anyone that way.

...I've seen myself that way for a long time. It's difficult not to, really.

I know that I don't experience things in the way that I should - in the way that most people do. I think my father knew it as well. Most of what he tried to teach me after I was adopted dealt with how to present as a good person anyway. It didn't matter if I was incapable. What mattered was that I continued to try, and if I acted like a good person then that was how others would perceive me.

Albert...

[Give him a moment, that's really upsetting...]

...You... You are a good person, you're not just acting like it. You're not incapable, you're... You're doing just fine...

[Wow, okay, never mind, he's absolutely not managing to find any sort of coherent argument with that. That's just so brain-shatteringly depressing he has no idea how to handle it.]

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