[It's also a little hard to put into words; give him a moment.]
I'm not going to claim that I was always suffering or anything back then; most of the time I felt fine. I was an angry person, of course, but I enjoyed my plans and my projects; I liked to fight, and I liked my powers.
I was never really happy with anything the way that I am now, though. Even when I was still with Birkin, I was more often annoyed or frustrated with something or other; the time I spent with S.T.A.R.S. was nice, I suppose, but ultimately it wasn't anything I cared deeply about - it was just an assignment, and one that I knew was likely not going to end well eventually, and when it didn't I can't say that I particularly minded.
But things are far different for me now, and it makes even the memories I look back on in a decent light from back then seem a bit surreal.
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[It's also a little hard to put into words; give him a moment.]
I'm not going to claim that I was always suffering or anything back then; most of the time I felt fine. I was an angry person, of course, but I enjoyed my plans and my projects; I liked to fight, and I liked my powers.
I was never really happy with anything the way that I am now, though. Even when I was still with Birkin, I was more often annoyed or frustrated with something or other; the time I spent with S.T.A.R.S. was nice, I suppose, but ultimately it wasn't anything I cared deeply about - it was just an assignment, and one that I knew was likely not going to end well eventually, and when it didn't I can't say that I particularly minded.
But things are far different for me now, and it makes even the memories I look back on in a decent light from back then seem a bit surreal.