Take your time to consider it; it isn't as though a decision needs to be made now. Make sure it's something that you want, and know that it's fine if it ultimately isn't.
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I think what changed things for me is feeling like I was forcing that sense of distance to remain in place. The idea of removing it scared me, but it didn't seem right to try to keep it there anymore - especially not recently, after the things that have been happening lately. I realized that this entire business in the sixth layer has been bothering me because it's too close to my experiences - not someone else's, and not instances I remember but don't have any real connection to. I associate those things as having happened to me, and my responses to it and ability to handle it come from who I used to be, and that sort of association isn't something I'm comfortable trying to deny or ignore anymore.
I was afraid of it because of the sort of person I was. But it doesn't seem right to keep pushing it away.
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I think what changed things for me is feeling like I was forcing that sense of distance to remain in place. The idea of removing it scared me, but it didn't seem right to try to keep it there anymore - especially not recently, after the things that have been happening lately. I realized that this entire business in the sixth layer has been bothering me because it's too close to my experiences - not someone else's, and not instances I remember but don't have any real connection to. I associate those things as having happened to me, and my responses to it and ability to handle it come from who I used to be, and that sort of association isn't something I'm comfortable trying to deny or ignore anymore.
I was afraid of it because of the sort of person I was. But it doesn't seem right to keep pushing it away.