Yes, I imagine it would have been incredibly tough, if not impossible, to attempt something like this earlier.

...I know it sounds kind of silly, but I'm a bit afraid that if I do remove that distance, I'll end up closer to how I was before. I used to be similar to my past life, much more than I am now, anyway. I don't want to go back to that; I'm quite fond of how I am now.

But that's ridiculous, isn't it? It's not like I'm going to change and forget all the things I've learned just because I'm looking at it differently. I suppose it's still something that'll take some getting used to.

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But I think... I think it is something I would like to pursue.