I wasn't on very good terms with most of them, but they were still important figures in my life, whether I wanted to admit that or not. And I think I did care about some of them, as much as I was capable. Chris and Jill. Birkin. People like that.

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...I think Birkin was trying to look out for me, in his own way, even though we were arguing the last time I spent time with him because he refused to come with me. He gave me the virus immediately before we parted ways; he seemed convinced it would help in some way. It was...incredibly backwards, but I do think he tried.