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[manufactured]

NOAH ISAACS

Albert Wesker. Pharmaceutical Research and Development. This surely won't end poorly.

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[scythegun]

I'm really happy to hear that. It really means a lot to me that I can make things easier for you.

I know I say it a lot, but you really do make me so happy. Things can be really tough sometimes, yes, but it's always worth it. Don't ever question that.

[He finally loosens his grip a bit on Wesker's hand, though he's not letting go entirely.]

Honestly, I don't know where I'd be without you.

[manufactured]

Likewise.

[He's quiet for a moment, though, moving to run his hand through Jaeger's hair again.]

...I'll try not to call myself defective anymore.

[scythegun]

...Thank you. I really do appreciate it.

[He knows he's not going to be able to change Wesker's mind about this, but as far as he's concerned that's a step in the right direction.

He'll lean into the hair-playing, as usual.]

Are you okay? This conversation was a bit rough...

[Maybe less so for Wesker, but it's still worth checking.]

[manufactured]

...I feel as though I should be asking you that...

[You got...really upset for a while back there.]

[scythegun]

I'm okay. It was... difficult to hear that, but I'm all right now. I tend to get worked up very easily, I suppose...

[manufactured]

...It's all right. I...know that I'm likely not being terribly fair with regards to all of that; that's why I wanted to ask you about it in the first place.

[scythegun]

You're right, I don't think you're being fair. I... don't know if I managed to explain my thought process behind that at all beyond "I don't like it", so you have my apologies for that. It's a bit difficult to figure out how to put my thoughts into words when I get worked up like that.

I don't mind talking about it, though. If you have any questions - at any point - I'll try to answer them. I can't guarantee I'll manage it very well, but I do want to let you know how I feel.

[manufactured]

...I would appreciate it.

[A lot, actually.]

[scythegun]

Of course. Whenever you'd like, then.

[manufactured]

...I suppose for now I mostly want to know why it suddenly upset you so much. I certainly understand that it did, I just don't know why.

[scythegun]

It... scares me, I think. It isn't as though I'm afraid of something specific happening, it's just...

[How does he explain this...?]

If someone else were to say something like that about you, I'd be furious. It's a terrible thing to say about someone else, ja? But because you're saying it about yourself, I... honestly don't really know how to handle that. It worries me instead of making me angry. You're usually very stubborn about these sorts of things, so I don't expect to change your mind and that... Well, it upsets me. You're never going to see yourself the way I see you, even though I really wish you could.

[manufactured]

Because you see me as a good person.

[It's said in a way that indicates he sort of knows, but wants confirmation anyway.]

[scythegun]

Yes.

[There isn't any hesitation; it's stated like it's a fact.]

You're working so hard to be a good person and you're torn up about the things you did in your past life... It's upsetting that you don't think it's possible for you to be a good person.

[manufactured]

As I said, I don't think that makes me a bad person, or that I'm inferior to others. It's more along the lines of how good acts done purely for the sake of reward are still good acts in that they benefit people, but the person doing them can't be said to be kind because that's untrue - the intention is self-serving. Does that make sense?

[scythegun]

Yes, that does make sense. I still think you're being too hard on yourself, though.

[manufactured]

In what way?

[scythegun]

Most people get something out of being kind to others. Whether that's some kind of reward or just feeling good about themselves, it's still some kind of payment. There are certainly people like you said, who only act kind towards others for that reward, but it's not always so black and white.

It seems to me like you're holding yourself to standards you wouldn't have for anyone else. That's a little unfair, ja?

[manufactured]

...What makes you think I wouldn't hold others to those standards?

[scythegun]

Do you hold others to those standards? You're usually very hard on yourself, so I thought that's what you were doing here.

[manufactured]

[...um]

...I did manage to stop myself before telling Kei that he isn't evil, just defective, but that doesn't mean I wasn't thinking it.

[scythegun]

[...]

Well, at least you didn't say it...

[why are you like this]

[manufactured]

...Either way, I'm certainly not the only person I would hold to those sorts of standards; it applies to everyone.

[scythegun]

That's better than just holding yourself to those standards, at least. I shouldn't have assumed that, my apologies.

[manufactured]

[...]

I don't blame you for thinking it, at any rate.

[He...knows, okay.]

[scythegun]

Sometimes people do that, so I just sort of assumed...

[He does that, at least.]

Sorry. It won't happen again. If I'm not sure, I'll ask you.