...It sounds like it would have been painful to hear something like that. That you have to pretend to be a good person so people will see you that way.
I don't know if I can put it into words. It's just... I find that idea upsetting, I suppose.
I found it more calming than anything. It was never judgmental, just an acknowledgement that I could never see myself as a good person.
So I was taught to be kind to others, and to never resort to violence. To treat people well so they would likewise treat me well. They wouldn't have to know what I'm capable of and what I'm not. I would be perceived as a good person, even if I couldn't be one as far as I was concerned.
...It was good to know that my own limitations didn't have to matter, if that makes sense.
[Wesker will allow it, and he'll return it after a moment, though there's still no desperation to it on his end of things; he'll let his hand just bury itself in Jaeger's hair for a moment before continuing to play with it lightly between his fingers, the gesture soft and repetitive.]
[It's good, it'll get Jaeger to calm down eventually. He's still a little tense and obviously worked-up, but it's nothing that's unbearable or overwhelming.]
I always want to be. You mean so much to me, after all... I want to look out for you in any way I can.
I'm fine for the time being. Even with what that person said to me in mind, I really am doing all right. Far better than I was for a while, at any rate.
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It's okay. I know you didn't mean to. That just... hit me really hard, I think.
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I don't know if I can put it into words. It's just... I find that idea upsetting, I suppose.
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I found it more calming than anything. It was never judgmental, just an acknowledgement that I could never see myself as a good person.
So I was taught to be kind to others, and to never resort to violence. To treat people well so they would likewise treat me well. They wouldn't have to know what I'm capable of and what I'm not. I would be perceived as a good person, even if I couldn't be one as far as I was concerned.
...It was good to know that my own limitations didn't have to matter, if that makes sense.
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[That makes sense, but that doesn't really make it any easier.]
I just... I really hope someday you'll look at things differently. I really do think you've already succeeded; you're already a good person.
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It's at least acknowledgement that someday things might change and for now, that's good enough.]
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You really are good to me.
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I always want to be. You mean so much to me, after all... I want to look out for you in any way I can.
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You know that this isn't hurting me, don't you? This entire situation, the way I think about these things. There's no pain in it.
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