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Albert...

[Give him a moment, that's really upsetting...]

...You... You are a good person, you're not just acting like it. You're not incapable, you're... You're doing just fine...

[Wow, okay, never mind, he's absolutely not managing to find any sort of coherent argument with that. That's just so brain-shatteringly depressing he has no idea how to handle it.]

[He shifts a bit then, pulling Jaeger closer to him.]

...It's all right, Jaeger, just take a moment. Breathe for a while.

[He nods a bit at that, but he'll latch on then and just try to take a moment to calm himself down.

What do you even say to something like that, though?]

...I'm sorry.

[It's sort of mumbled, and he's honestly not sure what he's apologizing for. For needing to take a moment? For everything Wesker's been through that's led him to believe that? Both, maybe?]

You don't have anything to apologize for.

[His grip against Jaeger's body is tight, and he'll nuzzle him a little after a moment; the gesture is awkward, though there isn't anything desperate behind it.]

[He'll return that, of course. It is desperate on his end while he tries to steady himself enough to come up with some way to counter that, to argue against it, but...

There isn't anything he can say that will change Wesker's mind. He already knows that. If Wesker's ever going to start thinking otherwise, it'll have to be his decision. It's something Jaeger doesn't even want to try to fight against, in all honesty.

But giving up isn't an option.]

You've always done a good job of looking out for me and helping me, even when I was a complete pain to deal with. You are a good person; you've always been good to me, and I know I'm just one person, but you've been good to Elda too and... And that's really important. A good person doesn't have to be a saint, and it's unreasonable to expect that. You... You really are doing a great job, I promise.

[He's quiet for a moment at that.]

I want to be good to you, Jaeger. You and Elda both. You've both shown me kindness when I needed it, so of course I'm going to try to return that.

You absolutely succeed. You've been nothing but kind to me. It's always appreciated, and as I've said before, there's no place in the world that's safer than being right here beside you.

I know we're just two people, but you've always done your best for us and that's... It's really important.

[He'll play with Jaeger's hair a bit at that, softly.]

You don't have to try to convince me that I'm a good person, you know. It's all right.

[He'll lean into that, but it takes him a bit longer to settle than it usually does.]

I want to. I know I can't just change your mind on it, but it's really important to me that you know what I believe that. It's not something I question.

I've never doubted you. I know you believe everything you're telling me, and that you think that I'm a good person. Even if I don't believe it, I know that you do.

Good. I don't ever want you to have to question that.

I don't.

[So much hair-playing.]

I...apologize. For upsetting you.

[He'll lean into that more, finally relaxing a bit.]

It's okay. I know you didn't mean to. That just... hit me really hard, I think.

Might I ask why...?

...It sounds like it would have been painful to hear something like that. That you have to pretend to be a good person so people will see you that way.

I don't know if I can put it into words. It's just... I find that idea upsetting, I suppose.

[...So much hair-playing.]

I found it more calming than anything. It was never judgmental, just an acknowledgement that I could never see myself as a good person.

So I was taught to be kind to others, and to never resort to violence. To treat people well so they would likewise treat me well. They wouldn't have to know what I'm capable of and what I'm not. I would be perceived as a good person, even if I couldn't be one as far as I was concerned.

...It was good to know that my own limitations didn't have to matter, if that makes sense.

No, I... I think I can understand that.

[That makes sense, but that doesn't really make it any easier.]

I just... I really hope someday you'll look at things differently. I really do think you've already succeeded; you're already a good person.

Perhaps one day things will change. For now, however... Well, if you see me that way, then I've done well.

[That gets more of that desperate nuzzling. He should have a response or at least something to say, but honestly he can't find anything right now.

It's at least acknowledgement that someday things might change and for now, that's good enough.]

[Wesker will allow it, and he'll return it after a moment, though there's still no desperation to it on his end of things; he'll let his hand just bury itself in Jaeger's hair for a moment before continuing to play with it lightly between his fingers, the gesture soft and repetitive.]

You really are good to me.

[It's good, it'll get Jaeger to calm down eventually. He's still a little tense and obviously worked-up, but it's nothing that's unbearable or overwhelming.]

I always want to be. You mean so much to me, after all... I want to look out for you in any way I can.

[Don't worry, he isn't stopping.]

You know that this isn't hurting me, don't you? This entire situation, the way I think about these things. There's no pain in it.

I'm glad. I wasn't sure... I didn't think it was, but it's... really good to have that confirmed.

I'll tell you if anything changes. But I can assure you that I'm not hurting.

Thank you. I really don't like the idea of anything or anyone hurting you.

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