...It's difficult to explain.

[This, from the sound of it, is something he doesn't really want to get into; he doesn't like it and it's obvious from his tone, but he'll force himself to continue after a moment.]

I couldn't let anyone stop me. It was the one opportunity I had, and I couldn't give it up regardless of who was standing in my way.

I...recognized you, but I wasn't in much position to care about that fact.