I'd like it if he'd managed it himself, of course, but he didn't live long enough to do so, and I'd hardly count sacrificing himself proper atonement considering he had no other choice; it was that or return with them and go to jail for various charges even outside of murder, life ruined with little hope of reconciliation...
I don't know. It feels more like the latter, since even if there was a proper atonement for what happened I don't really want to deal with it, but I will. I don't know if I deserve to have the chance at redemption for his life either, or if others expect it of me, but I can't just pretend that it has nothing to do with me. It's not right.
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I'd like it if he'd managed it himself, of course, but he didn't live long enough to do so, and I'd hardly count sacrificing himself proper atonement considering he had no other choice; it was that or return with them and go to jail for various charges even outside of murder, life ruined with little hope of reconciliation...
I don't know. It feels more like the latter, since even if there was a proper atonement for what happened I don't really want to deal with it, but I will. I don't know if I deserve to have the chance at redemption for his life either, or if others expect it of me, but I can't just pretend that it has nothing to do with me. It's not right.
So more of the latter, yes.