...You're the only person I've told about a fair amount of the complications that might come from this, you know.
[Because he can actually be honest with Elda about this sort of thing; everyone else is either too casual an acquaintance, entirely too young to be considered on his level, or...Jaeger, whom he can't tell a lot of things for a lot of reasons.]
I still haven't had any sort of proper emotional response over this. I expected there to be something eventually, but it isn't happening for whatever reason, and I don't usually respond to things this stressful by not responding at all.
[He's kind of an anxious mess in some way when things are stressful, even if he's suppressing it; this isn't suppression, it's just...literally nothing.]
I told you once that beyond a certain point, I don't really remember feeling much outside of anger, hatred and instinct. So it... Well, saying it concerns me isn't entirely accurate, given everything, but you get the idea.
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[Because he can actually be honest with Elda about this sort of thing; everyone else is either too casual an acquaintance, entirely too young to be considered on his level, or...Jaeger, whom he can't tell a lot of things for a lot of reasons.]
I still haven't had any sort of proper emotional response over this. I expected there to be something eventually, but it isn't happening for whatever reason, and I don't usually respond to things this stressful by not responding at all.
[He's kind of an anxious mess in some way when things are stressful, even if he's suppressing it; this isn't suppression, it's just...literally nothing.]
I told you once that beyond a certain point, I don't really remember feeling much outside of anger, hatred and instinct. So it... Well, saying it concerns me isn't entirely accurate, given everything, but you get the idea.