[He wants to just reiterate that he's all right and there's nothing to be concerned about, but after a moment he manages to figure out words.]

I'm a bit disturbed by not knowing what happened, or how many of us were there. I dislike not knowing if they died, and if so, whether it was my fault or not.

So I'm...bothered by it, but it's manageable.

[...He sounds sort of like he'd rather die than admit any of that, but at least it was honest.]