Albert Wesker (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
manufactured) wrote2017-04-30 12:43 am
manufactured) wrote2017-04-30 12:43 am
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Albert Wesker. Pharmaceutical Research and Development. This surely won't end poorly.
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It would bother me more if it was someone I knew well, or someone I cared about the opinions of.
Though I suppose it troubles me a bit that my issues are so obvious to others.
Though I suppose it troubles me a bit that my issues are so obvious to others.
Don't worry about it too much; I'll be fine.
[Eventually.]
It doesn't affect how I see myself. That admittedly hasn't changed much since we discussed it, though I've been trying not to openly call myself defective.
[Eventually.]
It doesn't affect how I see myself. That admittedly hasn't changed much since we discussed it, though I've been trying not to openly call myself defective.
...I know hearing that upsets you. It isn't my intention to.
[He's. Trying.]
[He's. Trying.]
...I understand, I think.
[He's been trying to sort through it a little? He thinks he gets it a little better than he did last time.]
[He's been trying to sort through it a little? He thinks he gets it a little better than he did last time.]
I wouldn't care for it very much if someone said something like that to Kei's face, even if I objectively agree with it.
[...Wesker, that's.
...
You know what, okay.]
[...Wesker, that's.
...
You know what, okay.]
It's objective fact about some people, I'd think...?
[...look he's trying really hard but it's. fairly obvious that he does not quite get it.]
[...look he's trying really hard but it's. fairly obvious that he does not quite get it.]
Personally, I don't think it's fair to think of anyone that way. There are always going to be people who don't think the same way as others, or don't feel the same things, or experience things in the same way. I don't like the idea of setting a base line and saying that anyone who doesn't meet it is "defective".
I suppose part of that is a difference in how we think of the word; you've said that you don't think of yourself as less than others, but whenever I hear it, that's always my first thought. Even though I know that's not what you mean, it still troubles me to hear it.
I suppose part of that is a difference in how we think of the word; you've said that you don't think of yourself as less than others, but whenever I hear it, that's always my first thought. Even though I know that's not what you mean, it still troubles me to hear it.
[Mm.]
Perhaps. Though I would argue that there's a difference between simply not meeting a baseline, and having one's experiences be so far off from normal that it's difficult to relate properly to others.
Perhaps. Though I would argue that there's a difference between simply not meeting a baseline, and having one's experiences be so far off from normal that it's difficult to relate properly to others.
...I've seen myself that way for a long time. It's difficult not to, really.
I know that I don't experience things in the way that I should - in the way that most people do. I think my father knew it as well. Most of what he tried to teach me after I was adopted dealt with how to present as a good person anyway. It didn't matter if I was incapable. What mattered was that I continued to try, and if I acted like a good person then that was how others would perceive me.
I know that I don't experience things in the way that I should - in the way that most people do. I think my father knew it as well. Most of what he tried to teach me after I was adopted dealt with how to present as a good person anyway. It didn't matter if I was incapable. What mattered was that I continued to try, and if I acted like a good person then that was how others would perceive me.
Albert...
[Give him a moment, that's really upsetting...]
...You... You are a good person, you're not just acting like it. You're not incapable, you're... You're doing just fine...
[Wow, okay, never mind, he's absolutely not managing to find any sort of coherent argument with that. That's just so brain-shatteringly depressing he has no idea how to handle it.]
[Give him a moment, that's really upsetting...]
...You... You are a good person, you're not just acting like it. You're not incapable, you're... You're doing just fine...
[Wow, okay, never mind, he's absolutely not managing to find any sort of coherent argument with that. That's just so brain-shatteringly depressing he has no idea how to handle it.]
[He shifts a bit then, pulling Jaeger closer to him.]
...It's all right, Jaeger, just take a moment. Breathe for a while.
...It's all right, Jaeger, just take a moment. Breathe for a while.
[He nods a bit at that, but he'll latch on then and just try to take a moment to calm himself down.
What do you even say to something like that, though?]
...I'm sorry.
[It's sort of mumbled, and he's honestly not sure what he's apologizing for. For needing to take a moment? For everything Wesker's been through that's led him to believe that? Both, maybe?]
What do you even say to something like that, though?]
...I'm sorry.
[It's sort of mumbled, and he's honestly not sure what he's apologizing for. For needing to take a moment? For everything Wesker's been through that's led him to believe that? Both, maybe?]
You don't have anything to apologize for.
[His grip against Jaeger's body is tight, and he'll nuzzle him a little after a moment; the gesture is awkward, though there isn't anything desperate behind it.]
[His grip against Jaeger's body is tight, and he'll nuzzle him a little after a moment; the gesture is awkward, though there isn't anything desperate behind it.]
[He'll return that, of course. It is desperate on his end while he tries to steady himself enough to come up with some way to counter that, to argue against it, but...
There isn't anything he can say that will change Wesker's mind. He already knows that. If Wesker's ever going to start thinking otherwise, it'll have to be his decision. It's something Jaeger doesn't even want to try to fight against, in all honesty.
But giving up isn't an option.]
You've always done a good job of looking out for me and helping me, even when I was a complete pain to deal with. You are a good person; you've always been good to me, and I know I'm just one person, but you've been good to Elda too and... And that's really important. A good person doesn't have to be a saint, and it's unreasonable to expect that. You... You really are doing a great job, I promise.
There isn't anything he can say that will change Wesker's mind. He already knows that. If Wesker's ever going to start thinking otherwise, it'll have to be his decision. It's something Jaeger doesn't even want to try to fight against, in all honesty.
But giving up isn't an option.]
You've always done a good job of looking out for me and helping me, even when I was a complete pain to deal with. You are a good person; you've always been good to me, and I know I'm just one person, but you've been good to Elda too and... And that's really important. A good person doesn't have to be a saint, and it's unreasonable to expect that. You... You really are doing a great job, I promise.
[He's quiet for a moment at that.]
I want to be good to you, Jaeger. You and Elda both. You've both shown me kindness when I needed it, so of course I'm going to try to return that.
I want to be good to you, Jaeger. You and Elda both. You've both shown me kindness when I needed it, so of course I'm going to try to return that.
You absolutely succeed. You've been nothing but kind to me. It's always appreciated, and as I've said before, there's no place in the world that's safer than being right here beside you.
I know we're just two people, but you've always done your best for us and that's... It's really important.
I know we're just two people, but you've always done your best for us and that's... It's really important.
[He'll play with Jaeger's hair a bit at that, softly.]
You don't have to try to convince me that I'm a good person, you know. It's all right.
You don't have to try to convince me that I'm a good person, you know. It's all right.
I've never doubted you. I know you believe everything you're telling me, and that you think that I'm a good person. Even if I don't believe it, I know that you do.
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