Albert Wesker (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
manufactured) wrote2017-04-30 12:43 am
manufactured) wrote2017-04-30 12:43 am
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Albert Wesker. Pharmaceutical Research and Development. This surely won't end poorly.
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Oh, that...
[...That was probably really bizarre, actually. He's still missing context for some of it and while it wasn't necessarily anything terrible, it's still sort of weird.]
...Are you okay?
[It's a belated question, admittedly, but given all the feelings that came with Wesker's memory he can only imagine how strange his own memory would feel. Or, well, not feel.]
[...That was probably really bizarre, actually. He's still missing context for some of it and while it wasn't necessarily anything terrible, it's still sort of weird.]
...Are you okay?
[It's a belated question, admittedly, but given all the feelings that came with Wesker's memory he can only imagine how strange his own memory would feel. Or, well, not feel.]
Yes, it was just a bit strange. Honestly, it was a little similar to how I felt before leaving Umbrella... It put me in a bit of an odd mood, but it wasn't terrible.
...It is, yes. You've said that most of your memories are like that?
Yes. It... takes a moment to remember how to feel again, sometimes. But that's... That's exactly why I want to keep feeling, even if I get overly emotional, because I...
[He hesitates, but there really isn't any point in stopping now.]
...I'm afraid one day I'll come back from a memory like that and I won't be able to feel anything anymore.
[Though to be honest, he'd pick apathy over experiencing that much pain and rage and hatred.]
[He hesitates, but there really isn't any point in stopping now.]
...I'm afraid one day I'll come back from a memory like that and I won't be able to feel anything anymore.
[Though to be honest, he'd pick apathy over experiencing that much pain and rage and hatred.]
...I understand.
[In some ways, anyway.]
I imagine the experience you had tonight was overwhelming for you, though.
[In some ways, anyway.]
I imagine the experience you had tonight was overwhelming for you, though.
...Yes. I... I've never felt like that before. Even when things were really bad, I was never that angry.
[Honestly, it's not fair to compare them. The things he's experienced in this life have mostly been positive, while Wesker's past life was impressively terrible.]
It's... a lot to process. How did you work through it all?
[Honestly, it's not fair to compare them. The things he's experienced in this life have mostly been positive, while Wesker's past life was impressively terrible.]
It's... a lot to process. How did you work through it all?
...I don't feel like I have a choice.
[It's the answer he always gives, but it's honest.]
Beyond a certain point, it's always like that to some degree. Not usually quite that strongly, but the hatred is always there.
It kept me going back then. I didn't have much else.
[It's the answer he always gives, but it's honest.]
Beyond a certain point, it's always like that to some degree. Not usually quite that strongly, but the hatred is always there.
It kept me going back then. I didn't have much else.
...I'm sorry. It... sounds really difficult.
[He nuzzles Wesker; it's bordering on desperate.]
I'm so sorry things were so bad for you in your past life, but... you aren't alone anymore, and you won't ever be alone again. I'll always be here for you.
[He nuzzles Wesker; it's bordering on desperate.]
I'm so sorry things were so bad for you in your past life, but... you aren't alone anymore, and you won't ever be alone again. I'll always be here for you.
It's all right, Jaeger. I know it isn't like that anymore.
[He'll return the nuzzling, however.]
You shouldn't have had to experience that. Both the emotions and Uroboros as a whole.
[He'll return the nuzzling, however.]
You shouldn't have had to experience that. Both the emotions and Uroboros as a whole.
I'm not really sure where to start.
[Give him a moment, he'll try to come up with something.]
...Uroboros was... It felt like nothing I've ever experienced before. It wasn't... bad, though, it was just... different.
[He really enjoyed it? He certainly wouldn't want it, but it felt amazing and he really has no idea how to process that so as a result he just sounds kind of unsure about the whole thing. He's. He's trying...]
[Give him a moment, he'll try to come up with something.]
...Uroboros was... It felt like nothing I've ever experienced before. It wasn't... bad, though, it was just... different.
[He really enjoyed it? He certainly wouldn't want it, but it felt amazing and he really has no idea how to process that so as a result he just sounds kind of unsure about the whole thing. He's. He's trying...]
...It feels good, doesn't it.
[He tried to tell you before that he enjoyed it, after all.]
[He tried to tell you before that he enjoyed it, after all.]
That's what bonding with it is supposed to feel like. I know there was some pain involved, but after a while it no longer mattered; being able to use its power and claim it as my own was something that I found highly enjoyable.
I didn't think it would reject me. But I didn't know for certain if bonding with it would be possible; for all I knew, it could have killed me outright.
[...]
I had nothing left at that point; I convinced myself that I didn't need anything or anyone. I had Uroboros; that was enough.
I had nothing left at that point; I convinced myself that I didn't need anything or anyone. I had Uroboros; that was enough.
I understand.
[Better than he ever has, anyway.]
Things will never be like that again. No matter what happens, no matter what we have to deal with or remember, I'll always be right here for you. I'm not going to leave.
[He's finally loosened his death grip on Wesker and instead moves to hold him as close as he can, regardless of how uncomfortable this is.]
[Better than he ever has, anyway.]
Things will never be like that again. No matter what happens, no matter what we have to deal with or remember, I'll always be right here for you. I'm not going to leave.
[He's finally loosened his death grip on Wesker and instead moves to hold him as close as he can, regardless of how uncomfortable this is.]
[He'll shift a bit to allow it.]
I know. I know you won't.
[...]
You could feel it when it started to die with you, couldn't you.
[It's not really a question; he remembers that feeling well. It isn't something he likes thinking about, because that particular sensation had been terrifying, but if Jaeger felt that as well...
...Well, he can imagine it's not helping the desire to cling to him.]
I know. I know you won't.
[...]
You could feel it when it started to die with you, couldn't you.
[It's not really a question; he remembers that feeling well. It isn't something he likes thinking about, because that particular sensation had been terrifying, but if Jaeger felt that as well...
...Well, he can imagine it's not helping the desire to cling to him.]
Dying was an inevitability at that point. I think I knew that, even if I wasn't terribly willing to accept it as it was.
But Uroboros dying with me was... To be blunt, it was the reason I had to take a while before discussing that memory with you. That feeling stayed with me for a while - that, and the feeling of being without it. I'm not sure how to describe it, other than not feeling complete anymore.
But Uroboros dying with me was... To be blunt, it was the reason I had to take a while before discussing that memory with you. That feeling stayed with me for a while - that, and the feeling of being without it. I'm not sure how to describe it, other than not feeling complete anymore.
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